sayonara
it is just so futile to vent everything here at a short notice.
words don't do justice nor priorities.
but i take my chance.
one week meet another and it not only breaks my heart, along with my intensity.
mind over matter it is and it is no longer about what i want.
but perhaps, what others want me to have.
and while some trying to be understanding, others just find it plain stupid.
and it all began with a smile - it is really stupid, i know.
i'm going with certainty for now, even if i strongly think that it is not where i want to be.
but beggars can't be choosers.
letting go means leaving it in the past and in actuality of moving on.
it is the best thing that ever happened in my life.
it is the first and also the last.
little do people know, why is it so absurd?
allow the reasons to lie between the truth and my denial.
i am leaving tonight with a miserable self.
surprisingly, things that i proclaimed before are now vague to my perception.
i will settle for possibilities then.
pardon my self-centeredness, but it is already due.
i will miss being super jovial and carefree and just happy about almost everything.
and endlessly ask people to smile.
because now my smile has take its absence.
as said, it's not a one way street.
damage control or drastic measure, nothing will change the fact that it's over.
enjoy while it lasts, and it already come to an end.
well, i never expect it to be so radical in a way but it is.
hope the trip will fix me wherever is broken.
and other issues that bother me will set its release.
just in case of the inevitable, i already had the best time and moments with the best people in my life.
and to some who have been involved in my account for the past months, i appreciate it super a lot :)
mus - thanks for being my best friend throughout the years :)
licia - thanks for being my best pillar of strength in so many times i opt to yield :)
v - thanks for listening to secret of my secrets. haha! and the time you had spared for me :)
t - thanks for being understanding and loving me always :)
ain - thanks for being there and a very good friend to me :)
kenzo babes - thanks for making me feel young at heart and the cause of my laugh wrinkles! haha :)
colleagues - thanks for making life at work less boring :)
k - thanks for being you :)
huda - thanks for being a sister to me and made me shop a lot! haha :)
mieza - thanks for the support and always make things rational for me :)
luqman - thanks for being my part-time boyfriend and always around when i need you! haha :)
family - thanks for being the greatest gift ever :)
cousins - thanks for being the best cousins in the world! :)
others - thanks for being part of my life :)
and i have two hours to pack everything now!
promised to come back feeling better though.
meanwhile, take care and much love :)
words don't do justice nor priorities.
but i take my chance.
one week meet another and it not only breaks my heart, along with my intensity.
mind over matter it is and it is no longer about what i want.
but perhaps, what others want me to have.
and while some trying to be understanding, others just find it plain stupid.
and it all began with a smile - it is really stupid, i know.
i'm going with certainty for now, even if i strongly think that it is not where i want to be.
but beggars can't be choosers.
letting go means leaving it in the past and in actuality of moving on.
it is the best thing that ever happened in my life.
it is the first and also the last.
little do people know, why is it so absurd?
allow the reasons to lie between the truth and my denial.
i am leaving tonight with a miserable self.
surprisingly, things that i proclaimed before are now vague to my perception.
i will settle for possibilities then.
pardon my self-centeredness, but it is already due.
i will miss being super jovial and carefree and just happy about almost everything.
and endlessly ask people to smile.
because now my smile has take its absence.
as said, it's not a one way street.
damage control or drastic measure, nothing will change the fact that it's over.
enjoy while it lasts, and it already come to an end.
well, i never expect it to be so radical in a way but it is.
hope the trip will fix me wherever is broken.
and other issues that bother me will set its release.
just in case of the inevitable, i already had the best time and moments with the best people in my life.
and to some who have been involved in my account for the past months, i appreciate it super a lot :)
mus - thanks for being my best friend throughout the years :)
licia - thanks for being my best pillar of strength in so many times i opt to yield :)
v - thanks for listening to secret of my secrets. haha! and the time you had spared for me :)
t - thanks for being understanding and loving me always :)
ain - thanks for being there and a very good friend to me :)
kenzo babes - thanks for making me feel young at heart and the cause of my laugh wrinkles! haha :)
colleagues - thanks for making life at work less boring :)
k - thanks for being you :)
huda - thanks for being a sister to me and made me shop a lot! haha :)
mieza - thanks for the support and always make things rational for me :)
luqman - thanks for being my part-time boyfriend and always around when i need you! haha :)
family - thanks for being the greatest gift ever :)
cousins - thanks for being the best cousins in the world! :)
others - thanks for being part of my life :)
and i have two hours to pack everything now!
promised to come back feeling better though.
meanwhile, take care and much love :)
