alone itself don't need company

be alone it is.
three weeks away and frustration surpassed my will to find happiness.
perhaps i tried too hard.
i am still in dire to explain myself but maybe just for once, things are better left hanging in the air.
and just for once, it is well-proven that action speaks louder than words.

i would be lying if i said i don't like you.
but i would be lying if i said i fall for you.
and there's no one to judge us.

it's unfathomable.
it's complicated.
it's just not anyone's concern.

i am no longer her.
i am trapped in my own thoughts.
decision, now or never.

merely another ordeal of life's downfalls.
can i hang on?
can i keep up with the changes?
can i incessantly be in character?
can i fake my smile again and again?
can i be stronger?

i wish to see tomorrow where things would be different.
and to God i silently pray...